Author: Michelle Madow
Series Number: 1
Publication Date: February 1, 2017
Genres: YA, Contemporary
Where I received the book: I received an eARC of this book to review from the author
Summary: I should have died when I was shot at the Halloween dance.
Instead I woke up—one week earlier, in a parallel universe where my mom’s fatal car accident six months ago never happened.
A world with my mom still in it was all I ever wanted. But in this timeline, everything is different—my grades, my friends, and even my boyfriend. I’m a stranger in my own body, and I don’t like who I’ve become.
But one thing is the same—that shooting will still happen at the end of the week.
I’m the only one who knows. Which means I’m the only one who can stop it.
But first I need to convince someone—anyone—that I’m telling the truth… and then get them to help me.
so, i have a lot of shit to say about this book. most of it is because of the author rather than the book itself. i’ll leave this towards the end of the review along with some screenshots.
i quite enjoyed this book as a whole. i found it extremely intriguing. with most books, i tend to be able to guess the end before it’s anywhere near. i mean, the elementals series (also by madow) were extremely predictable. this book, not so much. i had guessed a couple people as the shooter, but it was none of the ones i thought. one thing i don’t like is how the murderer was shown as having a mental illness. as if mentally ill people need even more stigma around them ……
madow has a habit of writing bitchy female characters. i’m not going to say i was surprised that it happened in collide too. i really liked the friendship between claire and anna.
one thing that absolutely pissed me off was the fact that anna got mad over something that her boyfriend did before they were even together. anna seemed extremely immature, even though she was often being praised for the opposite. anna is stuck in this situation where she’s not in her “normal” world anymore, but all she really seems concerned about is her boyfriend(s?)/the silly love triangle.
one thing i particularly loved about this book is the writing style. i read this book so quickly. the pacing is really good. there were some points i just skipped over as it was a little repetitive, but overall i didn’t quite mind.
i think my favourite thing about this book was the mystery about how/why she was in this other world and who the killer was. unfortunately we don’t get many answers in the end regarding the world. i wish we had. was anna in a parallel universe? was she dreaming? or was she in a coma? who knows.
now, the reason why i rated this book so low was because of the constant use of the terms “psycho, insane and crazy”. anna doesn’t have a psychotic disorder, nor is she having psychotic symptoms. as someone who has had this, i really didn’t appreciate the use of these terms in such a belittling way. these disorders are serious and extremely difficult to cope with, even without the stigma surrounding them. you don’t even need to have dealt with mental illness to know that these are ableist terms and are extremely harmful.
anyway, i sent some messages to the author explaining that i didn’t like the choice of words she chose. i asked if there was any chance she could change it as the book isn’t yet published (i didn’t think she’d be able to, but i wanted to ask anyway). here are some screenshots of the messages:
i know it probably seems silly, but i really didn’t like the way i was spoken to. it felt as if my feelings were dismissed for her shitty writing. a character can be scared without being called crazy, but i guess if you love cliches and stereotypes then you wouldn’t care. madow says anna thinks she’s having a delusion, but after searching the whole novel for anything delusion related, i found nothing. how can a character think they’re suffering from something but it’s never even mentioned to the reader? i think it’s an excuse for the author to get away with using ableist language without considering how it will impact her readers.
the least she could’ve done was apologise. but she didn’t.
i won’t be reading another book by michelle madow. i’ve unfollowed her from all social media platforms. i don’t even want to know her anymore. she’s hurt people and she doesn’t care.
anyway, that’s it from this review. sorry it got a little ranty, but i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings.